My head is full. I have never experienced anything like this in my life. I've been an avid reader since birth but lately the whole idea of sitting down to read anything at all is daunting at best. My eyesight is shot from too many screen hours and my attention span is one that barely lasts a millesecond before I start to panic that I should be doing something else.
How did my life get like this? Is it just being middle aged and having more responsibilities? Is this normal? Is it because I am an entrepeneur and run two businesses similtaneously and simplly have information overload? How much is that freaking social medias fault? Do I really care about Kim K's shiny butt? No, but I looked at it like the rest of the free world...and zoomed in on it. Because that's what we do as a people, we look at things. Now we are forced to absorb more information in a fraction of the time and if we don't react, respond or "like" something or someone in the time it takes that damn uncessesary Facebook Messanger app to open, there must be something wrong with us.
Even to sit and type this blog entry, it took months. My last post was in May. How sad, boo hoo. Typical me. Get excited, start something big, then watch the fuse die down like an old stick of incense.
I won't make excuses. Won't even try. BUT I will say I've been busy being productive. My wheels are still spinning but I FINALLY think I'm on the right path towards something great. This time I am keeping my master plan close to my heart until the timing is right. If ever.
Being on information overload is a daunting task. It sucks the life out of you like an emotional vampire. The head hurts, the eyes go crossed (well, maybe just fuzzy) and I'll probably lose my husband eventually after he continues to tell me detailed information and I looked at him with glazed eyes and ask him a question pertaining to the exact information he just gave me. Whoops. Sorry dear, I truly AM interested in every-single-word coming out of your mouth but frankly if I am not being yelled at WITH eye contact WITH a megaphone, chances are I am not going to process your information.
So how do I remedy this? Well #1 I need a vacation but that isn't in the cards anytime soon. #2 (and more important) I need to get back to practicing mindfulness and relaxation techniques
The easiest thing of all to do is breathe and as a yoga instructor I have every damn trick in the book to know exactly how to calm my mind, work with my breathe, kiss my ass. Uh... that's not in a textbook, but that's how I feel when I don't take my own advise or practice what I preach.
Life is short. Life is VERY short and as we age our mortality becomes more clear to us. What is happening to me now is making me realize that I no longer want to live to work but I want to work to live. With that said I want to work to THRIVE not just to SURVIVE.
I have always been a hard worker but until the past several years I worked for "the man". I collected a steady paycheck with someone elses signature on it and realize that some days that really isn't a bad thing because when you own a business it is much harder to "turn off", and throw the cell phone/smart phone in the mix and your email, texts, problems, become a 24 hour a day obsession. Oh where or where is my rotary dial phone?
I am setting a goal. To figure out how to shut down at a certain point of the day as well as shutting of my central media system, or CMS. We are only a generation away from having USB ports implanted in to our heads so I need to make the break now before I have blinking eyes and hinged arms.
There is really NO reason to be Tweeting, IM'ing, Linkd In, Pinning, or Instablabbling every single day, moment, nano-second of my life.
Today my stepdaughter left her phone at the house and was like a zombie chilid in the backseat. I asked "why are you so quiet"? Her response came quietly and with melancholy sadness, "I miss my phone". She said it like she'd lost a long lost friend... about a piece of metal. I am saddened by the reality of this generation and it opened my blurry eyes.
Read paper instead of a screen, stop what you are doing, close your eyes and take 3 long, deep breathes. When you find yourself floating around the internet in non-stop circles, it's time to stop. Go outside, look at the sky, climb a tree, water your plants, wash your car. All of these little day to day things sound mundane but are extermely important to your brain power. Slowing it down recharges the batteries. When you run it on all cyclinders eventually it will crash and burn.
Stop. Look around. Enjoy the view. Breathe.
